Four Random Ideas
I talked to my friend and co-worker CC, a tall, big, black woman. She told me about her boyfriend, a big, black man. She said, “I’m a big woman, I need a big man.” She has known him for about 12 years, and I told her – dating is nice, but getting back out there and having to learn people is exhausting, constantly having to expose yourself to strangers – like an overworked flasher. CC said, “Women these days don’t keep it real. I fart in front of him, and when we have ‘relations’ and it’s bad – I turn to him and tell him, that was crap. And if I’m slacking, he turns to me and say – now you’re just getting lazy.”
I said to TT, “When I offered to fly out to California, she said – no, it’s all right. Then I was even pushy and said, no I really will fly out there. When is it good for you, and she said no – really it’s not important.” And TT said, “She might be playing coy. Women are like that.” I said, “I have a mortgage. I have students. I have police officers to talk to, and if I’m going to buy a ticket in a month I need to know if I’m going in a month. I need to take time off. I need to shop for prices. I’m pretty simple – if you want to see me, tell me, if you don’t, then say so. I really don’t have the fucking time to listen to your fucking sub-text. Just be frank with me. Is that so difficult to tell me what you actually want?”
KC said that one of our common students was having problems in school. His attendance is slacking and so is his behavior, and when I told him that it was about a girl – he said that I was probably right. I said, “It’s always been the woman. From the start it was a woman, all she had to fucking do was not eat the fucking apple. How difficult was that one?”
It’s difficult to ask anything of people, maybe because they believe that everyone has a motive. Maybe 'Said Person' couldn’t ask me to see her because she believed I had a motive behind it, and when I say no – it makes me out to sound like a liar. It reminds me of when I talked to KN and asked, “What are you doing this weekend?” And she asked why. I told her if she could pick me up to take me to Chicago this weekend, and she said she could be here in Ohio on Friday. I can ask those things of my friends, but when I ask those things of people that only call me their friend – I look a bit insane.
I said to TT, “When I offered to fly out to California, she said – no, it’s all right. Then I was even pushy and said, no I really will fly out there. When is it good for you, and she said no – really it’s not important.” And TT said, “She might be playing coy. Women are like that.” I said, “I have a mortgage. I have students. I have police officers to talk to, and if I’m going to buy a ticket in a month I need to know if I’m going in a month. I need to take time off. I need to shop for prices. I’m pretty simple – if you want to see me, tell me, if you don’t, then say so. I really don’t have the fucking time to listen to your fucking sub-text. Just be frank with me. Is that so difficult to tell me what you actually want?”
KC said that one of our common students was having problems in school. His attendance is slacking and so is his behavior, and when I told him that it was about a girl – he said that I was probably right. I said, “It’s always been the woman. From the start it was a woman, all she had to fucking do was not eat the fucking apple. How difficult was that one?”
It’s difficult to ask anything of people, maybe because they believe that everyone has a motive. Maybe 'Said Person' couldn’t ask me to see her because she believed I had a motive behind it, and when I say no – it makes me out to sound like a liar. It reminds me of when I talked to KN and asked, “What are you doing this weekend?” And she asked why. I told her if she could pick me up to take me to Chicago this weekend, and she said she could be here in Ohio on Friday. I can ask those things of my friends, but when I ask those things of people that only call me their friend – I look a bit insane.
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9:01 AMLame. Trying to use the Eve thing. And lame, using your blog as a weapon. I'm back from flu-land and I'm going to kick your ass and your subtext in a about 5 days!
2:41 PM
I agree. That is fucking BS. Who is gonna show this man who the stronger sex really is???
4:40 PM
If a man can poke fun at the vagina, then what is left for him to poke at?
Tran 3:16
7:26 PM
Ahh Fuzzy. Don't make me post embarassing pictures of you on the internet. Just hate because you've got vagina envy. By the way is that why you got a minor in women's studies?
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